Notes written without polish or permission.
No conclusions, no corrections, no context.
If you are looking for coherence, reassurance, or value,
you are in the wrong place.

Mail: stderr@runbox.com

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As kids we’re taught about honesty and we’re told "be yourself," but what does that really mean?

The waitress goes home and becomes a mom, the kids go to bed and she becomes a mom.

So be yourself really means compartmentalize. Be honest actually means be honest with yourself.

In that sense, perhaps modulation is not new. What is new is how much of our life has become performative.

This could be a jrnl log on my computer but is public instead. What is gained and what is lost? And perhaps more importantly, how to establish that boundary between visibility and invisibility?

Linkedin that.

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Post 00: C major

Am I slowly being modulated to mediocrity? Enter the full Deleuzian society of modulation. On steroids. I love it. It makes me legible. It reduces the friction. It allows me to exist in C major.

But that is not my nature. Some surfaces were meant to polish rock.

Let this surface be the abrasive then.

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Refusal

What does refusal look like in 2026. And more importantly how can this refusal be structural without jeopardizing legible existence. And maybe even more important, is that hypocricy?